So recently I haven’t really written any blogs, so I thought hey? lets waste more of my time and do it when I could be sleeping, well when I should be sleeping is a better way to put it; I went to bed at twenty to ten its now twenty to 11 and hurrah, no sleep.
Why does it seem my life revolves around finding romance, which technically it does to keep human race living lalala, but shutup natural instinct AND GIVE ME A BREAK preferable one that involves a kitkat would be nice. And stop me caring about wether boys like me or not :D thanks.
Ummmmmmm I had a chemistry exam like last week, and it was honestly so awful that I came out of that exam feeling woosey and like 10 minutes later I was physically sick? Why did my body have to go and do that? Half an hour later I was fine, but then I had double maths and just wanted to die anyway.
Also I looked into cosmetic science, that my friend looks like a good career ;D making makeup own brand? YES PLEASE, I spend far too much money on makeup like 150 in the past month, anyway nothing I say even sounds interesting anymore, take care reader, im always here for you;)
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Well I was going to upload the blog intentionally before I wrote another one, but I forgot to upload the first one so heres the second part, its been like a week from above anyhow
So recently I thought I really liked this guy, and literally in my head, I was adding up all these signals and messages to draw myself to the conclusion that he must actually like me, although in the back of my mind I also prepare myself for the opposite of use and leave alone, but I do that with every boy. The only thing is, ive recently found out he doesn’t like me like that, so im left with how on earth did I randomly come up with this idea, is my mind so perplexed by boys signals that I just imagined it all, I find it really strange? Besides I cant live without him, he’s part of my daily routine, I go to sleep knowing that he’s okay, and only after that, he makes me laugh, he’ll play fight with me without worrying if he’s hurting me, he’ll make fun of me and support me when its needed, a friend that I cant bare t let go, so if he’s reading this, I hope he realises he’s one in a million, and he’s a good friend to me.
On a happier topic I recently decided to start making up songs, im hoping to get some more cheerful ones soon about things like pins and needles and sneezing and how yawns are contagious, just because I can :D oh and video blogs are back in town ;D I figured I can do them on my laptop now, but this means no more editing so be prepared for umms, errr’s and no more random singing intervals :’( I am already crying inside about this, and until this is fixed, I am forever yearning for the random singing parts. I hate chemistry. I love biology, I hate maths, im beginning to warm to photography, OH AND IM SO EXCITED FOR SUMMER ITS CRAZY? Peace out home dog
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(a few days after the one above this) Wow, my life is rubbish at the moment. My heart feels like a worn out teddy bear. I’m scared for my own welfare.
Wednesday, 27 January 2010
Tuesday, 5 January 2010
theres a thought
chemicals; love
Someone i used to be really close with once told me, he doesnt really believe in love because its chemicals in your brain trying to get you tp find a mate to keep the human race alive. At first i argued that this couldnt possibly be true because people say they find love and theyre hooked on that one person their whole life, it doesnt happen to everyone but some are lucky enough. And he continued to say things like, its compatibility and being able to put up with people, and chemicals flowing in your brain. This option pops into my brain often.
Personal experiance of love
When i compare that to what i feel ive had, i think it cant be true, like when you look at someone and your stomach goes, or liek when the other person only likes youa s a friend, and you agree, no matter how much it hurts, just so you can keep seeing there face, and everyday it gets easier to just see them that way, that proves i know i can move on, But then you get those that appear stuck in your mind all the time, and you hate them will all your brain, but love them with all your heart, that cant be chemicals can it? But then ide have to believe in things liek soul mates, but soul mates represent both people adoring eachother, so why is it people can want but not need.
The mind; love
Sometimes you can convince you that everything is possible, but ive heard someone say before 'you cannot force someone to love someone else' and thats very true, but is love desire? lust? adoration? how can someone define love, and why doesnt my mind knwo what is? why are films showing me 'love' why hasnt the generations told people of how love can hurt and mend.
Why do i care so much?
Friends; love
Those are the people who you can trust with your entire life, and you expect the same from them, people have told me you cant be friends with the opposite, the other sex always wants something more from you. Well i'de like to say that i believe that, but i do see that persons point of view, like you can be really good friends with someone you think is ugly because you just couldnt do it to yourself, people say looks dont matter, even scientists have proved that wrong. Its a good thing to know that sub-consciensly, all your friends think youre a bit attractive.
Music; Love
How can music understand what love is, and comfort you when you feel there is no love? A blog cant answer these questions, but maybe one day the universe will for me.
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